Disarming the Lie That You Are a Betrayer

In this Disarming Lies session, Chris walks through an inner healing prayer process for exposing the lie, “I’m a betrayer,” and replacing it with God’s truth. This video is for believers carrying shame, fear of failure, or painful memories that still shape how they receive love, ask for prayer, or relate to others.

• Chris explains how trauma can form false beliefs that become a lens for interpreting life.

• A guided meditation helps participants ask Jesus to reveal painful memories connected to deeper lies.

• Chris models how to confess, bind, and surrender the lie “I’m a betrayer” to Jesus.

• Natasha shares how shame and fear made it hard to ask for prayer, leading to the deeper lie “I’m a failure.”

• The session points people back to God’s truth, community, vulnerability, and healing prayer.

Here we go. Praise God.

We begin in the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Lord Jesus Christ, we thank You that You are our deliverer. You are our healer, and You are our Savior. God, we thank You and praise Your name. Thank You for the opportunity to press into You today and see if there are any lies hindering us from going deeper into intimacy with You, Father.

We ask this through the intercession of St. Anthony of Padua, the finder saint. Help us find any lies. We ask this through Jesus’ mighty, holy name. Amen.

The agenda includes testimonies, a session overview, guided meditation, disarming lies, announcements, and closing prayer. Since we are behind, we can keep moving forward.

I think it is important that we raise our faith, so let’s take a second to share any testimonies that come to mind. Lord, are there any testimonies from Disarming Lies where there has been greater fruit?

For me, as I did this deep meditation work, I noticed that the Lord brought up multiple situations from when I was eight or nine years old, where friends chased me with knives to stab me. I do not know what was going on, whether it was full-on demonic manifestations, but when I did a deep meditation on this, I felt the Lord told me the lie I believed was that I was weak and powerless.

After disarming that lie, one fruit has been feeling more confident in conflict management. Before, when people would raise their voice and act erratically, I would probably shut down and need time to think before coming back to them. Now, in the middle of conflict management, I feel more comfortable sitting in it, and it is easier for me to communicate even if they are acting erratically.

Another thing is related to my masculinity. In conflict management, people often freeze, fight, or flee, and I felt like I was definitely the one who would flee. As a leader of a ministry, an organization, and especially a deliverance ministry that the Lord uses to fight demons, it is important to enter into conflict management. I am grateful that the Lord has brought greater freedom in this way.

Has anyone else experienced freedom from lies they believed before, lies they were helped to disarm, and seen the impact in their lives?

All right, no worries. We will keep moving forward.

I shared a longer version of this about Elise, but I will keep this to three minutes or less. This is the session overview we are diving into today. It is not a true story, but it reflects what often happens when lies quietly shape our lives.

Her name was Elise. On the outside, she was successful, responsible, and put together. Deep inside, she carried a belief formed in childhood trauma. It was not spoken. It was learned. A father who left. A mother who was emotionally unavailable. Over time, she concluded, “I’m not loved.”

So she became an overachiever. She performed, worked herself into the ground, and chased approval. In relationships, she either clung too tightly or pushed people away. Even when love was offered, she could not receive it because the lie filtered everything.

By 35, she had the life many people would want, but internally she was exhausted, anxious, and alone. The tragedy is not that she was not loved. It is that she believed she was not loved, and that belief shaped everything.

This is what we are talking about with the vicious cycle of lies. Elise experiences trauma. Her father leaves, and she is raised by a mother who is emotionally unavailable to her. That perceived rejection leads to condemnation.

She does not just feel hurt. She internalizes it as something being wrong with her, as if she is the one to blame for her father walking out on the family and her mother not being able to give her the kind of love she wanted.

From condemnation, she forms a judgment. She makes a conclusion about her experience. “This is bad, and it means something about me.” That is the judgment piece. You can judge something as good or bad, but in this case, the judgment is that her father leaving and her mother being emotionally unavailable is bad.

Out of that judgment, a lie is formed: “I am not loved.” That lie becomes the lens through which she interprets her life, and this is where the cycle becomes vicious. She begins to look for evidence to confirm the lie. They call that confirmation bias. Every disappointment, every rejection, and every unmet expectation reinforces it.

She chases approval and works herself into exhaustion. In relationships, she either clings too tightly or pushes people away. Even when love is offered, she cannot receive it because the lie, “I am not loved,” filters everything. Unless that lie is exposed and replaced with truth, the cycle continues.

As I shared with you, I was chased by these demonized kids with knives. My judgment was that it was bad, and it was bad because of me. So what was I speaking over myself? I must be weak and powerless because I ran from these kids instead of addressing it head-on.

Then I might not apply to certain opportunities. I might not step out of my comfort zone to ask out the beautiful girl who seems interested in me. I might not have faith to move forward. In negotiations as a leader of a company, I might always go for the lesser monetary value because I believe I am weak and powerless. These are ways lies create a vicious cycle and steal, kill, and destroy our lives.

That is the bad news. We want to live in God’s truth so we can enjoy the abundant life Jesus talks about in John 10:10. The thief, Satan, comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came to give us abundant life. We first need to get rid of these lies.

For those who have been with us before, you will recognize that the discernment often starts with this question: “In the last couple of weeks, where have I been the worst version of myself?” Then we ask God, “Are there any lies attached to that, allowing me to be the worst version of myself?”

Today, we are going to do a guided meditation. Similar to Elise, we want to find some of the biggest lies and traumas we have gone through, because when we are healed of those traumas, our lives can be transformed quickly by our Lord and Savior, Christ Jesus.

We are going to do a meditation now. Get in a comfortable place. If you want to sit down and have your feet on the ground, do that.

As part of meditation, we want to slow down our breathing and recognize that as we take in oxygen, we are breathing in the breath of God. In the Old Testament and in Judaism, Yahweh has been connected with the sound of breath. Even our breath can remind us of God. God breathed into Adam, into the clay, and Adam was formed.

We want to slow our breathing so we can recognize God in the middle of it. For breath work, I like to count to four. Inhale for four seconds, hold for two seconds, and then exhale for six seconds.

As you inhale, you are welcome to meditate on any name of God that helps you connect with Him. It could be Yahweh. It could be Jesus on your inhale and Christ on your exhale. It could be Jehovah Jireh, the Lord our provider, with Jehovah on your inhale and Jireh on your exhale. It could be Holy Spirit. Use whatever name helps you connect with God.

I am going to use “I love Jesus Christ.” Others may choose Abba, with Abba on the inhale and Father on the exhale. As you inhale, feel your lungs filling up like a balloon. Let your diaphragm expand.

Breathe in through your nose for four seconds. One, two, three, four. Hold for two. One, two. Then breathe all of that breath out for six seconds. One, two, three, four, five, six.

Good. We will do that again. Inhale for four. One, two, three, four. Hold for two. One, two. Exhale for six. One, two, three, four, five, six.

Keep going with your slow breath work. I am going to take you through a guided meditation.

Envision yourself sitting next to Jesus. As you are in this image, you are resting next to Him as the two of you gaze upon the Father.

As you turn to Jesus, thank Him. Keep your heart in a place of gratitude toward Him. You could thank Him for your spouse, your children, the place you live, your car, your pets, your ministry, or whatever the Lord is placing on your heart to be grateful for.

Scripture says we enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise. We want to stay in a place of gratitude toward God because resentment, frustration, and jealousy separate us from God’s heart. Gratitude draws us deeply into connection with God’s heart.

Lord, we thank You for all the gifts and blessings You have given us. Thank You, Jesus. Praise Your name, God. Thank You, Lord.

Jesus, as we are in this Lenten season leading up to Easter, where You died for us on the cross, that is the greatest gift we could ever receive. You died for our sins so we could be set free and saved.

Every heavenly blessing was poured out on the cross. Every spiritual gift we could imagine was bestowed upon us at the cross. We need to walk in those gifts. Thank You, Lord.

As you look into the eyes of Jesus, those eyes of fire that burn with passion, He invites you on a journey. He offers you His hand, and you take it.

As you place your hand in Christ’s hand, you realize His hand is perfect, and your hand fits in His hand perfectly. As your hands meet and you touch His skin, a peace that transcends all understanding begins to flow over your body.

Thank You, Jesus. His shalom peace, the peace Jesus always walks in, begins to overtake your body.

Jesus tells you that you may start to worry or think about the next meeting, your kids, a court case, or whatever it may be. But as the Lord takes your hand, all of that melts away, and you realize that you are one with the Creator of the universe.

Thank You, Jesus, that you are the temple of the Holy Spirit and God dwells in you. God has poured out His Spirit to rest inside each of His children.

Jesus tells you He wants to offer you an abundant life, but first you have to address some wounds and the lies that followed the traumas you have gone through.

I encourage you to go with Jesus and let Him lead you. In your heart, position yourself by saying, “Lord, I want to be healed of any traumas I have gone through that are separating us from living in perfect union with one another.”

Allow the Lord to take you. As He takes you, note any memories from your life that the Holy Spirit highlights. Those are likely the keys to the trauma we will unpack together as a family after the meditation.

Lord, we thank You for words of wisdom and words of knowledge. Thank You for people hearing Your voice, or simply seeing these traumas played out in their imaginations.

Christ is safe. He is peace. He is your protector. He is your deliverer. If any of these traumas feel scary because you have not visited them in a while, know that you are being held and carried by Jesus. There is nothing to fear or worry about. Go with Jesus into it.

We will take a few seconds to breathe and sit in that place.

As we come out of the meditation, feel free to rub your face, rub your fingers together, or wiggle your toes. These things help us slowly come out of meditation instead of feeling launched out of it.

Our next approach is that the team can intercede for us. If you do not feel like sharing, you can sit and pray for the person who does share. Pray that they would be vulnerable as they unpack what they were seeing so we can identify any lies and disarm those lies through the inner healing technique.

Does anyone want to share what they were experiencing in the meditation?

I am happy to go first if it is helpful.

What I saw was a situation from when I was a kid. At first, I thought it would be a certain situation I have been working through with my coach, but I actually saw a different situation from fourth or fifth grade.

I was angry at a leader in my life. I will say that for the sake of protecting their identity. This leader did not get me what I wanted, and I was angry at them. When they were gone from the car, I was there with a couple of friends. One friend and I were talking, and I said some derogatory things about this leader.

When the leader came back to the car, one of the friends shared what I had said behind their back. I felt so much shame and guilt in that moment for speaking that way about this person in my life.

I felt like I was a betrayer. That is what I felt the Lord was showing me as the lie I had been believing about myself: “I’m a betrayer.”

This also connects to something that came up during a retreat in December 2024. They took us through a breakout room and a mock assignment. One thing that was highlighted was that when people betray me, I usually give them one shot. If they betray me, I write them off. I stop investing in the relationship and move on.

It reminds me of the Scripture about love, how love is long-suffering and endures all things. I would say this is something I struggle with. If people betray me, I am willing to say, “If you do not care about me, I do not care about you,” instead of continuing to suffer long and endure in love, the way God loves us.

So I will take myself through that.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I confess that I have been believing the lie that I am a betrayer. In Jesus’ mighty, holy name, I bind up the lie that I am a betrayer, and I send it to the foot of the cross for Jesus Christ to deal with as He wills.

Holy Spirit, come into my heart and heal those parts of my heart that are believing the lie that I am a betrayer.

Lord, that is a lie. What is truth?

I am getting, “You are My beloved son, with whom I am well pleased.”

Thank You, Lord. Praise Your name, God. Thank You, Jesus.

That is modeled from beginning to end. Does anyone else want to have courage and step forward?

Good afternoon. May I speak?

Sure, please.

Good afternoon. My apologies for coming into the group late. I had mentioned that I had a court case situation, but I did not know I had to be present. I was praying about it this morning, and I heard a voice say, “Put it up in the community,” or send it to be put in the community.

In our culture, one rule is not to talk about your business. I do not know if that is pride or shame, but the idea is, “Do not talk about your business.” So I asked for prayer, and a few minutes ago, I got word from the attorney that the case was adjourned. I know it could only be Jesus. It is beyond good luck. It is only Jesus.

I said thank you, and I am sorry for messaging you at that time. The lie is pride. The lie is shame because it is something so personal.

Natasha, here is what I am hearing. You said, “Do not talk about your business.” Why not?

Usually in our culture, we keep things to ourselves. You keep it to yourself. It is your business.

My dear sister, it is not just you. This is humanity. Humanity’s default is to stuff things down and suffer alone in silence.

Okay.

My question is, why? What fear is that lie trying to get you to obey? Why are you supposed to keep it to yourself?

The fear that people will laugh at you. The fear of looking bad.

Why would you look bad?

It arose from a situation with my ill relative. Some things got into a very bad way because of his illness. There are things you do not want people to know are going on in your life. Fear. Shame.

You started to point toward other people. Look in your heart. Why would you look bad?

When I came on and saw that diagram about trauma, even though I only saw it for a short time, it did a lot for me. I do not know if there was a trauma trigger. What happened makes us look incompetent. What we are trying to correct now makes us look incompetent. It makes us look bad. I was hoping it would not reach the courts. There was a certain amount of helplessness I felt about it, but it is not about me. It is about God.

This is less about the court case, my dear sister. This is about your apprehension to ask people for help. I am trying to get at your hesitation to ask people to pray for you.

You said, “I do not want to share. I do not want to ask people to pray for me.” I asked why, and you said that in your culture, you are not supposed to talk about your business. Then we asked why, and you said people will laugh at you. Why? Because you will look bad. Why? Because you will look incompetent or bad.

I am digging deep, sister, and thank you for hanging in there with me. Where I am trying to get is that the lie seems to be, “I’m bad,” or, “I’m incompetent.”

Because you feel that way, you do not want to ask people to help because then you will be exposed as bad or incompetent. Does that make sense?

It makes sense. It makes a lot of sense.

If you are incompetent, so what? I want to see if we can dig deeper. If you are incompetent, so what?

Probably there is pride involved as well.

Why?

Probably I am focusing too much on self and not letting God handle it. Self-centeredness.

I am taking a second to sit with the Holy Spirit.

My question is this: if you are incompetent, why is that a bad thing?

Because I like to succeed at what I do.

If you are not a success, then what are you?

A failure.

That is a lie.

God says that where we are weak, that is the place where His manifested power and glory shine the brightest. St. Paul said, “When I am weak, then I am strong.”

We need to learn to glory in our weakness instead of allowing it to stop us from being connected to other believers or connected to God. There is strength in numbers.

So the lie is, “I’m a failure.”

God, that is a lie. I am not a failure. Where I am weak, You are strong.

Holy Spirit, come into my heart. Heal those places where I have been believing this lie that I am a failure.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I bind up the lie that I am a failure, and I send it to You, Jesus, to deal with as You will.

Lord, what is truth?

Natasha, I feel like the prophetic download I am getting is dandelions in a field. Dandelions spread. They are weeds, but when there is a field of them together, they are beautiful. To me, they are more beautiful than plain grass.

What I feel the Lord is showing me is that dandelions turn into little seedlings that blow. When we are connected, when we share through our sufferings, and when we stay connected to the body of Christ, it is like those seeds being blown out. Those seeds create new life, and then more new life.

You being vulnerable and asking people to pray for a situation you are going through could inspire someone else to stop keeping a hard thing in the darkness.

Also, sharing how you are tackling the situation could encourage others to think differently about their own situations. They may say, “I have been doing it this way and bumping my head against the wall, but she is inspiring me to think about my situation differently.”

I bless you with that in Jesus’ mighty and holy name. I proclaim that you are the seed of God being blown out. God, thank You for blowing out Natasha and pouring Your wisdom and revelation on the body of Christ through Natasha. Thank You, Lord.

Amen. Thank You, Lord.

Anyone else want to share from the meditation if there was any trauma the Lord highlighted?

If you did not get the chance to do today’s meditation, I encourage you to go back to Facebook or YouTube and watch the livestream. I believe it was powerful today. For me, I feel like I am only scratching the surface of what the Lord has in store for me through this memory He brought up. I honestly had not thought about it in years. It was embarrassing to be caught speaking badly about someone in front of their face, and I do not think I have done any healing work on that trauma. I am excited to dive into it.

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Now let us close in prayer.

In the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Lord Jesus Christ, we thank You. Thank You for pouring out Your revelation and exposing traumas that Your beloved children have not dealt with yet.

God, I pray that You would illuminate people’s minds to dive into these traumas and bring them out of darkness into the light, so they can no longer control their lives or steal, kill, and destroy. Lord, heal us of them.

Thank You, Father God. Praise Your name. Thank You, Jesus.

Thank You, Lord. Thank You for Natasha having the courage to share what is going on with her and to ask people for prayer coverage and support.

God, we thank You for breaking the lie that she is a failure. Lord, I pray that You would accelerate who she is in You, as Your beloved daughter with whom You are well pleased. God, shine her brightly throughout the world as the success that she is.

Thank You for Natasha’s life and the call on her life, Lord. Thank You. Praise Your name, Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You, Father. Thank You, Lord.

We pray this through the mighty name of our blessed Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

In the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Hope to see you all on Saturday for our accountability group. We love you so much, and God bless you all. We will see you soon. Goodbye. God bless you.